Reflections

alright so i've been trying to take everything in lately as far as sngs go...i used to be a winning player...it wasn't short term varience, it was fact...that i know...somewhere between M and ICM i lost my way...brandons been making me realize this lately...he's been saying to me " i'm trying not to learn anything new and just going with it"...my problem was that when i started winning, i didn't think i was good...i needed to learn more...it's taken me off my game...now i get into situations that used to be automatic to me and i analyze it till i make the wrong decision...when i was winning in sngs, i decided that i needed to extend my game to include a stronger mtt game...i learned and read and i think that i did a good job improving my mtts...but it started to take over my roll...i'd start playing only mtts and no sngs and i saw the results immediatly stop...so then i switched it up and started with the sngs again...only to find that the things that i've learned that helped me in mtts, were ruining my sngs...i'd constantly "put my eggs in one basket" always looking for a double up, not feeling the situations out the right way...

tonight i went onto sngplanet and theres an article about M in sngs and if it's useful...it's something i've been wondering for a while now...when i was a winning player, i would never use m as the deciding factors of my decision...i would use bb's...i think this is a big part of the problem for me...

i need to simplify my game...go back to what was making me win...playing tight and aggressive...i went to poker edge the other day and checked my new account and i am labled as a loose player...i couldn't even believe it...i play a tight game, usually 15 to 18 percent of hands played, how can i be considered a calling station?...but then i started to think about it...i push ALOT more hands than i used to...instead of letting things happen i am pushing too many hands...when i get my money in seriously, with a quality hand that's a favorite, i'll get sucked out on alot...but the other times, the times where i'll push hands that should be the favorite but aren't quality hands, i'll get called by a weaker hand and they will win because i didn't get in as strong as i should've...last week i had one night where i placed 6 out of 8...then i get up the next day and lose 5 straight and feel like i'm an idiot or playing bad...really the differences were that the first day i was staying super tight...playing only premiums...playing good poker...the next day, the first hand i get involved in, i had 66, i raised and got jammed early in a sng...i felt he had something like ak and decided to race him *which was retarded* and lost as he flipped up jacks...that decision single handedly set up a losing session for me.....even though after that i got in good 2 out of 4 as a favorite, i still felt like i was a moron and start analyzing...

that being said, i took last night off even though i was here at work...i played one 45 person sng and went out one before the final table...jammed 88 utg with a short stack but not the shortest in the tourny, and ran into jack in the CO...of course that reinstilled the fact that jamming utg, for the most part, is -ev...when i was pushing i said why are you jamming this....i had these thoughts last night and today so i was thinking i might play well tonight...i got into the midnighter...which is what i do when i think i'll play well...breaking my 10 dollar sngs to 1k...but it's still only a 10 dollar buy in so i hope it'll be worth the investment...i'm 60th out of like 700 left so it's still really early...